No point asking questions.

Its long since I blogged last time. Really don't know if anyone do come here and read the blog. Doesn't matter. Today was just like any other day. Got up at 10 in the morning at 10.30 was in front of comp. wondering from where to start. It was a cloudy day with a nice breeze blowing. looked out of room window could see powai lake, greenery surrounding it and all sorts of birds flying in circles. I asked myself "What am I doing in this closed room?". But then what would I be doing if I am outside. Thousands of thought came to mind, what am I doing. Why i am doing, Where I am going. Whats my destiny .....
Then looked at comp. decided its better to brush up these stupid thoughts and get back to so called IMPORTANT WORK. This has become a routine, once in every 2-3 days such thoughts come to mind and they vaporize like a spray of scent, Before one can see its wetness it has disappeared leaving back a fragrence.

In the evening decided to go for a walk along the lake side. It was cool, calm and quite. I was happy to be alone. I was in no mood of talking or listening to anyone. I don;t know why I was feeling relaxed. One of my friend had asked me the same question just yesterday. "Why do feel so comfortable standing in silence on the lake side.". Here again there were question and a anxiety. Anxiety that the moment would come to an end. Its just a matter of 5-10 min. and it would be dark. And it would be an end of one more day for me for everyone around me. The moment would be gone and will never come back ever again just like anyother moment. But there was a tension, I wanted to capture the moment, wanted to hold it tight and wont let it go. But harder I tried, more freely time slipped just like sand. I gave up. I let the moment pass by me. It felt better. Why? No point asking questions.