Shades of another evening

Every morning feel the same so is the afternoon and the night. For past so many years and countless day its been the case, But every evening is special. I have spent most of the evenings seeing sun set sometimes in sea, many a times in green mountains, now a days across powai lake. Every evening is different, every evening the sky has different shades and its not that one shade is better than the other, but is just different.

I don't know what is so special about these evenings that they make me get lost in memories, nostalgia. There are so many emotions, memories, feeling rushs through mind within seconds. So many years have passed and so many things have happened and I have grown from a kid running through the fields into a lump of fat and muscle who sit in front of comp for hours. And this transition seems to have happened in a blink. There were so many moments of trimphs and failures, successes and disasters. there were joy and tears and laughter. There were instances when I felt I am on the top world and then there were moments when life seemed so pointless. But life is like a stream of water, doesn't matter how many dams one build, how many obstacles one put, it knows to make its way through. Now when I look back, I smile, I laugh, I enjoy. All those moments tell me one thing life goes on. It will go on.

One may or may not get the thing which he wants the most. One may feel life has come to an dead end, One may feel there is no purpose in life to fight for. Doesn't matter what goes through one's mind, life finds it way though the most unexpected niche just like a stream. And just like a stream purpose of life is to enrich everything that comes its way in the way it can and keep moving, without worrying about the lost wars and battles. But one must always look back to appreciate his/her own courage in the moments of despair.

Now I guess I know why every evening shows us different shade, may be to tell us that the there are so many beautiful colors of life, and there are so many shades yet to be explored and the best of them is right there somewhere waiting...

So the moral is, make your butt move a bit every evening and try to see if you can get a glimpse of the best shade of the evning sky.

No point asking questions.

Its long since I blogged last time. Really don't know if anyone do come here and read the blog. Doesn't matter. Today was just like any other day. Got up at 10 in the morning at 10.30 was in front of comp. wondering from where to start. It was a cloudy day with a nice breeze blowing. looked out of room window could see powai lake, greenery surrounding it and all sorts of birds flying in circles. I asked myself "What am I doing in this closed room?". But then what would I be doing if I am outside. Thousands of thought came to mind, what am I doing. Why i am doing, Where I am going. Whats my destiny .....
Then looked at comp. decided its better to brush up these stupid thoughts and get back to so called IMPORTANT WORK. This has become a routine, once in every 2-3 days such thoughts come to mind and they vaporize like a spray of scent, Before one can see its wetness it has disappeared leaving back a fragrence.

In the evening decided to go for a walk along the lake side. It was cool, calm and quite. I was happy to be alone. I was in no mood of talking or listening to anyone. I don;t know why I was feeling relaxed. One of my friend had asked me the same question just yesterday. "Why do feel so comfortable standing in silence on the lake side.". Here again there were question and a anxiety. Anxiety that the moment would come to an end. Its just a matter of 5-10 min. and it would be dark. And it would be an end of one more day for me for everyone around me. The moment would be gone and will never come back ever again just like anyother moment. But there was a tension, I wanted to capture the moment, wanted to hold it tight and wont let it go. But harder I tried, more freely time slipped just like sand. I gave up. I let the moment pass by me. It felt better. Why? No point asking questions.